Why am I so neglectful? Or am I just busy? My days are spent running around after Lily Grace and having tickle fights and having time-to-take-a-bath-fights and all that is in between. We have tried to stay busy so we don't get sucked in to the stay-at-home part of our new lives. I am thankful that come mid-August (about the time the walls start closing in) she will be going to preschool three days a week a la my mother, which I am extremely grateful for.

I am about to wrap up another class and will start the next one immediately. I am so pleased that school is moving right along. I hope it continues this way up until graduation. I've made good grades since I've been back in college and I keep wondering why it was so difficult to do school work, much less do it well, when I was on campus. When I look back at my grades--pre-family--I am ashamed. Let's just say there are more W's (withdraw's) than A's, luckily more C's than F's, but still some F's. I can't believe I was just throwing away my college career. I suppose I thought I was going to be able to redeem myself in that fifth or sixth year, but honestly, I just was not mature enough to appreciate what I had. And what I had was endless opportunity.

My new life, as I call it, gives me so much joy and fulfillment that I cannot believe this type of life was not even on my radar before I was graced. However, when I was "young" I was so clueless as to what I thought would make me happy. I still believe that I would feel satisfaction from an important job, but not many of my other 20-something friends have important jobs. They just have regular jobs. And get drunk a lot.

I used to party a little so I could feel like I wasn't pushing 40, but eventually I realized that parenting is a lot more pleasant when you're A) not hungover and B) not worried about what you're going to do this weekend because C) what your precious child is doing right this very second is important(!!!).

I am sure that seasoned veteran mothers would look down on me, but I know that my life is a constant learning experience and I am totally OK with that. I would give anything to have gone into parenting with a little more idea of what lay ahead and a few less wild oats still in tow. However, that's just not how my cards were dealt. You live. You learn. And you become a better person.

Wow, this post just got really cliche. Bare with me, I'm growing up.

Oh, my mother was right. About everything. Obvi.


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Shut the front door! I just linked my Blogger account to Windows Live Writer and I have a feeling this is really going to make posting easy! We’ll see how this goes :)



Need. Coffee. Now.

Why is it so hard to wake up? I must still be programmed for college because I honestly think I could sleep an entire day away. I have always been a night owl (I stayed up late last night and finished Mockingjay, the third installment of Hunger Games) so I suppose this isn't any wonder. (Great series of books, by the way!)

I hope you all had a safe and fun Memorial Day weekend! I also hope you took a moment to remember our fallen veterans who have laid their lives down for our sakes. After all, that is what Memorial Day is about.

I personally pondered my freedom while shopping till I dropped yesterday with my mother-in-law. I got a new dress to wear for mine and Eddie's third (OMG!) anniversary, some new jewelry, a swimsuit, and a rockin' pair of red espadrilles. It's nice to know that I am not yet too old for people to buy me a few things now and then! Also, my mother sent the wonderful news that she would like to send Lily Grace to preschool 3 days a week starting in August and as much as I don't want to let her out of my sight, I will at least have some guaranteed time to do school work--and regain sanity.

Speaking of school..... I've been hearing many different opinions on vaccines for children. Autism being the biggest concern as well as several other complications. Personally, I am terrified that if I don't get her vaccinated whatever she may contract will be worse than whatever the vaccines bring on (so far so good--as far as I know). There is so much uncertainty around this topic and I am very torn. I need more information but I don't know where to look or who to trust? The CDC? Well, we know what they will say. A friend told me to read up on Dr. Tenpenny, but there again, I feel like her site is one sided. So, do you guys have any insight for me? Any websites I can visit? Any literature I need to be on to?

Now for coffee...........